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Hey Guys, I've been pretty busy at work but have found some time to take some pictures so I thought I would share a few and give y'all a link to my Flickr. I've really found photography to be relaxing and something I really love!

Hokay, I figure I better write this out now or I never will!

So who wants to see my next dress for prom?! All of you do of course :D! So I couldn't find the exact picture but this gives you the gist of the dress, but instead of green it is saphire blue. It was a um little above our price range (read...a lot) but we just wanted the whole ordeal over with and hey it's my senior prom! The store was less a store and more of an "experience" and an adventure. I litterally had to fight my way through a room of dresses less than a foot apart from each other and nearly got choked by the plastic bags because they were a good 2 feet above my head....mom didn't even try going in that "room". Also the dressing room people were MEAN, mom said that she would help me with the straps and stuff and the attendants SNAPPED at her and was all grumbling outside of our room "this is what we're PAID to do grumble grumble grumble"......it was insane. Ahh...yes...the picture!



....but dark blue and with hips (lol!!)

• I recently went to my first concert. It was My Chemical Romance......and it was fucking amazing. I was vigilant and got my tickets.....way back in december so I got floor tickets. So it was quite the experience for my first show, I got pushed into a mosh pit (and it was filled with line-backer sized guys) and got elbowed in the nose, I momentarily thought it was broken (because it bled a little) but it wasn't. Later on I got a crowdsurfer dropped on my head....that one kinda hurt because it was a direct drop.  I fought my way up to about the third row throughout the show and actually made eye contact with gerard (lead singer for those who don't follow the band) at first I thought I was imagining it but I wasn't! I also got gerards water poured on me (which was A. very nice because I was DYING in the pit and B. It made me squeal like a little teenie....but I don't care *does little dance*). The show was just perfect mix of increased theatrics and old school MCR....the crowd was rough but I was tough and made it out alive! It was without a doubt one of the best experiences in my life.
• In reference to my last post, I didn't get queen of courts but a good girl won, so I was ok with that. The reactions from the people who voted for me made it worth getting dressed up, they were livid...which was hysterical!
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  This is me and the winner, it wouldn't be a bad picture if I wasn't mid-laugh and my eyes weren't closed!
• School is killlllling me, between all the petty drama and keeping up with my classes, I think my head might be nearing explosion point.
• I'm going to try to get a job at the local library this spring break, I need to get some college money saved up and hopefully they'll have some sort of job available at the library because god knows I don't want to work fast food!
• This last bullet is more for me but whatever, I've found that I have serious problems expressing my emotions, I'm so used to being the wall, so used to having a facade to the world. I wish I had one of those real life friends I could pour my soul out to without worrying that they are going to judge what I say or about my family. I mean is that so much to ask for I think that I deserve that. I mean I have a counsler at school but I've known her since I was born, so it's kinda hard to be open with her and I couldn't ever let her all the way in on my emotions about everything because....uhhh my dad kinda is her boss...heh. I rarely cry in public, and the only time I can recall that was fairly recent was ........something that I totally overacted about and was stupid...I was even upset or sad, it just came out. (I spilt a whole carton of milk all over my hoodie and pants) and this was at least 8 months ago. I just need to write this to get it out of my head so I can focus on things again. My mind has been so rapidfire randomnosity that I can hardly pin-point things for a long period of time when I am out of school. I'm ready to start my new life at college, I don't want to leave behind some meaningful people in my life that give me the little joys that help me make it through the school day, but they just want me to blossom and succeed in college.  Ok, done with this.
  
  P.S. I'm kinda sad that I haven't had contact with a lot of you because of my busy life and your busy lives, if you see this please comment because I love you all and miss you tons. You guys don't know how much you mean to me!

*hugs*

So...my mind is not really capable of forming complete paragraphs at the moment....so you get a bulleted list with random thoughts and updates :D

• I have been nominated for Queen of Courts (which is apparently named a lot of different things around the US.....so for those who have no clue what I'm on about....it's kinda like homecoming....just during winter) So I need to pick what dress I'm going to wear to the ceremony thing..
• Last semester I got a 4.127, because my college classes did not factor into my GPA...woot!
• Friday my english teacher was talking to me and a friend of mine and we were talking about all sorts of things, and religion came up and OMFG you guys you wont believe what she pulled out of her desk after my friend and I had voiced our opinions on religion and stuff. She effin' pulled out The Gospel of the Flying Spaghetti Monster (OMFG WOW OWOWOW !!ONEE111!!one!) How awesome is my teacher?!
• It snowed 6+ inches last night and my dad and I got stuck in a parking lot.....it took us 45 minutes on a regularly 5 minute drive to get home
• My boys won the bball tournament that has been going on this past week, I'm so proud of them (I regularly cheer with the "big boys" in the front row at games, they were amazed that so much noise could come from me...they were ABSOLUTELY SHOCKED when a cuss word escaped my lips, I mean FLOORED...they stopped and stared!! lol!).
• Um...I will be going to my first concert in early march (My Chemical Romance baby!) They're actually coming to the middle of Kansas....a rarity! In fact they are the first band of their type to preform in the arena in 10(!!!) years...wow. Talk about luck!
• I think another scholarship essay will kill me.....I will fall over dead..heh

Ok, that is all that is coming to me, got questions, ask away!

Hey flist, still alive. Just doing a dance between insanely (mindblowingly) busy and being so tired I could sleep for a couple days.

Favor time, I'm not feeling depressed but I'm having some problems letting my emotions out lately. It's like they're stuck in a bottle and I can't get the lid off no matter how hard I try. So while I'm in this funk I'd greatly appreciate if you'd leave me some lj-love. Links, videos, music, or just plane ol' messages you'll think I would like are greatly appreciated!

Lotso'Love, Me

Ps. Sorry I haven't gotten to talk to a lot of you lately. I still love you!! *hugs*

For all those you care *COUGHMICHACOUGH* this is the new MCR video for Famous Last Words. For some reason it has only been shown in the UK so far, but fangirl I am, I found it and am sharing it with y'all!

Oh...Yeah...I'm still alive, just....mindblowingly busy...only two more finals in my college classes (er hopefully I'll pass college Alg and....not have to take it again) I stayed home sick today because I have no voice and my throat is KILLING me...oh well. *hugs to flist*